Well this blog didn’t last very long. I will probably discontinue fairly soon, but not just yet. BUT it did bring me before thinkers who can help me with my quest.
joyshimmers I thank you! There are bloggers on your site which can help this relative beginner. Their sites are awesome in comparison to this one. Check her out and some of her fellow bloggers and you will learn much more from them than from me.
That is unless you don’t mind the beginner approach. That’s the basics of the ebook I started and rewrote so many times because different thoughts and ideas kept coming before me. Basics for beginners. It’s stuff. Some minor info and ideas. Some hopefully not so minor. Snippets, tidbits and food for thought. STF…stuff. lol It was to be about small business startup but it evolved into self-examination (know yourself before starting a business that may well end, fairly quickly at that) that evolved into avenues of mind and spirit.
I was told I’m psychic. It would help if I knew exactly what a psychic does. I don’t meditate per se. But I think and at times these interesting thoughts come to mind. And they make sense! They resonate with my soul, weird though it may sound to others. They resonate.
What would happen if I could learn to use it to Help God’s Kids? God’s Kids is a rather generic name for the creative force wanting me to help whoever and whatever may need help. Or so my mind tells me.
Over and over I hear “Write My Story” and it wound up being more of a humdinger than I ever imagined! – “Help God’s Kids” and “Have faith”. Help from a massive abuser in lives gone by? Mainly as a male while I’m a female this lifetime? Having faith in a universal energy force I feel let me down and I could not seem to get past that? Which is why I became an abuser in the first place? I joined the winners of the time after being taken over by a hostile group when I had total ‘faith’ my Goddess would protect us! And she didn’t….why not?
Well apparently it’s part of my journey. Besides she could read various alternatives (quantum physics) and this was somehow the best lifepath for me to learn. Like I knew that then. Like I really understand it all now. Sure I do! Not.
I’m trying to evolve and learn something. Just not entirely positive what it is. I guess I just have to keep trying, but some days I just want to go to sleep and stay asleep. Read the part about the rock. So funny I think. Therefore I am. Right? lol It’s rather quirky how my mind can sometimes work.
Again, I wonder where do thoughts come from? Well if thoughts are things they are lingering in the atmosphere and depending on what you focus on thoughts will be attracted to you. But still, I think some are way out there and strange. I’ve been what? I’ve done what? Seriously? Does genetics really work that way? Or is this all imagination that somehow seems to resonate and has gotten me to the point of writing like this. Maybe someone reads it and says holy cow, I often have thoughts that seem outlandish too!
Who thought them first I wonder? And what parts of their thoughts am I missing that may be pertinent to make me more fully aware? Probably 99.9% of thoughts I am missing that could help me evolve. But evolve I will anyway.
Speaking of names I keep looking for one for the creative force. Can’t find one that fits. God doesn’t do it for me. I figure it’s because in the grand scheme of things the creative force is a little bit of everything and if we pick a name or one version of a God considering all the races and Gods and beliefs on this planet or other worlds, we are focusing on that one bit and ignoring so much else. Expanding my consciousness seems more logical to me.
I’ve got this thing about the name Daniel. His name ends in El. Was Daniel an angel? Not that I know of. I’ve read the book of Daniel in the Bible, but not in recent history. I’m going to have to read it again and see if any of these mindbending ‘insights’ shed some light on why that name lingers so much in my mind.
Sorry about the Biblical references. Well not exactly sorry, but I feel others are being left out in the cold and it’s not deliberate. I totally believe there’s more to life than just what that one religion believes. Its just this lifetime around I apparently decided to live in the US and be taken to Sunday School so it’s more front and center in my mind. I will learn about other philosophies as time goes on (my mom lived to 99 so I may have a long way to go yet) but for now Biblical references seem more front and center.
I was and still am a gambler. Can’t seem to get past it. But wow the ideas that would come to my mind as I sat in front of casino machines. Go figure. I don’t feel the need now as much. Somehow I won. Not money. But I won. I don’t feel so much the ‘loser’ now. Maybe because I’m reliving past events so I can move past them?
Am I enough on a voyage of discovery I am finally finding my way? To where is the question. Right now I have no clear answer.
I was a rock. Laugh all you like. Just a few days ago I think this and laugh at myself. Seriously???
I don’t think we humans are the be all and end all of creation. This rock was totally content and oblivious for millenia. If there is eternity, that’s a long time. Sometimes I feel the need to take a break. Then one day along came a landslide. Uh oh. I’m tossed and tumbled and now down the mountain in water. My minerals help contribute to life. And life expands. Do I believe in creationism? Yes. Exactly who creates is up for debate for me. Some universal energy force – God if you will. But what if all that was created was the basic building blocks and we grow from there? I believe in evolution as well. Am I now a part of the lifeforce of animals, including humans?
You hear those lifetime bells right? I was a piece of the earth just being. I didn’t tell this part, but story line indicates issues between cold blooded and warm blooded creatures way back in early evolution. I was a believer in the spirit world (now how we came to know of them I’m not so sure…time travel maybe? visitations from others? Elijah on a spaceship as he traveled through the heavens? hardwired in our brains?) and the Goddess let me down. The need for saving came along. Now that could have been way before. We wanted to be saved from creatures that could eat us and again hardwired in our memory banks and passed it on to a supreme being to save us. Epigenetics. So I’m evolving. For a long time I was ruthless, but successful. Then I backed off. Was that evolution on my part? Hopefully. But I still wasn’t very honest. So I stayed in the shadows. Few thoughts of sweet motherly females.
So those of you who say change your mind and change your world? What if you have buried in your psyche ‘life stories’ that will stop you dead in your tracks or you think or feel things and you wonder…