Delete or not to delete. That is the question…

Whether tis nobler…

Oh sorry, wrong quote. lol

I’ve come back to my blog. Took me long enough, didn’t it??? Should I delete old posts? I decided to keep them. Some day someone may want to read them all.

Who out there is on a spiritual quest to figure themselves out? I was on a long one. That could be because I’m well, you don’t have to know exactly how old. Let’s say ‘middle age’ and leave it at that. Once you hit middle age it appears many of us start wondering more. Who knows. Maybe it’s because children are grown and we have time to do such things.

Anyway, oh the stories my mind came up with while I would meditate, or shut down my mind and just write.

I have an ebook written about it relating stories and some business tidbits.

It’s still Snippets, Tidbits and Food for thought but if you read some of my prior posts and think I went rather far down the rabbit hole you should read the new ebook.

For many on a quest to learn about themselves it may seem rather ordinary, but for people just starting the quest there are ideas in there they may never have heard of. There are few details. I warn readers upfront. There’s only so much you can put in an ebook which is in general 22,000 words or so if you want to highlight a number of things.

I then tell them go to experts OR there’s a good chance I will affiliate market some of who I think rate higher on the Sharon Explores scale and have a link to my own sites. After all, the basis of the whole idea to start a business of my own and write was – business! How do I become an entrepreneur? Learning about my strengths and weaknesses showed me I would not be a great entrepreneur without partners of some type. 

I’d love to put it here. Truth to tell, I’m not that good at blogging yet. I don’t know how to put a link here to include the ebook. I’m sure its here and probably easy, but I haven’t figured it out just yet.

Can I learn more? Of course I can. Keep tuned. I’ll let you know how it works for me. Just how to keep tuned is up for debate right now. Do I blog, email, videos, Facebook, or most likely another free ebook with links included to sites where you can see what I’ve learned and what I will market to carve out my enterprise?

The case guinea pig is ready to squeal. lol

 

 

Oh Wow

Look how long it has been since I’ve written on here. Oh the things I’ve learned.

Now to learn one more thing. How do I put an ebook on here for free?

Did you ever have one of those days?

Well, maybe weeks, months, years…Things just don’t seem to be going right.

I’ve had my share.

But (laugh, it’s funny as heck) this phrase went through my mind as I woke up one day. “The Worm Turned”. I must have heard that in a movie one time. I took it then as someone who until that acted rather behind the scenes and followed the leader and took little initiative and didn’t cause waves – suddenly acquired balls (er, nerve, bravery, whatever) and stood up for himself. I plan on life going different from here on because I want it to and I’m going to create it as such. Even if my family does not think I have it in me.

What a reason to make changes and become a success – just to show my family who doesn’t think I can – that I CAN!!! I THINK I CAN…I THINK I CAN…

I’m the Worm. And its really funny. When I’m thinking thoughts not necessarily in my best interest that any other day would bother me, I say “The Worm Turned” and weird as it may sound I relax. My body relaxes and my mind relaxes and I’m able to stop the thoughts if I so desire.

Who wants to be known as a “Worm”??????? And I don’t seem to care…yet. Somebody will say something one day and I’ll go ‘ewwwww’…and they will ruin it – but not today. 🙂

That’s just plain strange. But seriously, I guess whatever works – works. Something as simple as an off the wall thought of three words may be a motivational tool for you also. Find your passion, your motivation and then GO DO!

I’ve reached the point of no return. The business will soon enough be underway. To that end I’ve started a new blog. In the grand scheme of things I have to focus on it if I want it to survive. Chances are slim. But I’m going to try anyway. On average 8 out of every 10 small businesses started do not survive. I’m not trying to be negative and stop anyone from trying. I’m just reporting statistics and let the newbie wannabe entrepreneur know what he’s up against. That’s all.

This blog is going to stay Sharon Explores. It will be a HODGEPODGE because I like so many different things. I’m not passionate about just one thing (well, only insofar as I want to pass on info in the hopes the right person comes across information pertinent to their present situation and I’m able to help in some way) but curious about all sorts of things.

You will never know what may be here because I have no strict plans for this site any more. The Dani Story blog on the other hand will be geared specific to business.

So HODGEPODGE IT IS!

 

 

To My Followers & An AHA Moment – Again

Dear Followers – few though there may be at this particular moment 🙂

To date I have not used SEO using key words. I use what words come to mind. So chances are I’m way, way, way low man – er woman – on the totem pole of searches. I’m ok with that – for now. I was in startup research phase of what I really felt would be a successful venture for myself and while I started the blog I didn’t have complete faith I was on the best path for the type of person I am. If the people I love have such little faith in me, its hard to have total faith in myself. Yet faith can move proverbial mountains.

I love to learn. I love to pass on what I learn. Do? Whole different ball game.

I finally figured out why I don’t have total faith. Its a very common human trait. We fear. Fear of rejection. Fear of love being taken away. I KNEW this, but it was reinforced how wide spread it was by watching a Tony Robbins seminar.

Because you failed to live up to the expectations of others and you ‘failed’. Yup, I totally believe in my soul’s path through life I’ve made less than stellar decisions and others paid for my ‘mistakes’. So fear of making those mistakes again keeps many of us on a straight and narrow path not really exploring all that life has to offer. And here I thought I was a little more unique. I guess not, huh?

Now me? I believe in the eternal life of the soul so mine goes way back.

UPDATE: I decided to update here and make changes instead of a new post. If you’ve read prior posts you know my family dynamics are less than perfect. So today was a AHA DAY!

How could I be so oblivious???? Don’t answer that. lol These things happen to the best of us. My daughter tells me – she’s competitive like her father. I knew that, but it was A HUGE AHA MOMENT NONETHELESS!

So that’s the bottom reason really for my divorce. I could never really pinpoint it. He wouldn’t actually say, but when it came down to it he moved out. It took me years for me to get the stress back under control; to stop hyperventilating at the drop of a hat. Years!

He changed when he got into management at his job. And she thinks like he started to…different from when we first met. I didn’t know THEN what I know NOW…

(Does that sound familiar? In case you can’t tell do a degree I pull personal experience into the background thoughts of starting a small business of your own. Do you want to know a major reason small businesses fail? The entrepreneur didn’t know what he/she didn’t know.)

Her type and my type don’t necessarily mesh well all the time. Oops.

You will find that in the workplace, too.) 

It took me long enough to explore enough expert authors, spiritualists, PhD’s, whatever and whoever contributed to my learning curve to finally come to that unassailable conclusion. I AM WHO I AM and some things I don’t want to change!!!

I want to explore more of what life has to offer this lifetime around and be who I really AM, foibles and all instead of trying so hard to be who others want me to be! To fit that stereotype of the family I was born into then the family I later gave birth to.

Will I continue to make mistakes? No doubt.

Will I sometimes offer my opinion and find that others totally disagree? No doubt.

But I’ve warned everyone this is just my opinion. And I’m not sticking to it. Tomorrow may bring before me something new and I change my mind. Uh oh, that’s a no no in many circles. It just causes confusion. Pick your poison (passion) and stick to it!

That’s not such a bad suggestion when it comes to your business. Stick to something and learn what you can – THEN move on. Otherwise confusion will set in, lack of initiative may start dogging your heels then possible shutting your doors.

I want my proverbial doors to stay open, thank you.

I will not sell myself as an expert. While I’ve heard that numerous times – become an expert – many people don’t especially love trying to follow experts they can’t always understand. I will leave that to others. I can, however, if I believe they may have good information to impart for those with different opinions than my own, affiliate for them.

Who knows?

 

 

Hello! Worm here :) (read last post)

For those of you who may decide to look at my writing once more or someone new to my blog let me give you some background.

I’m a not as young as I once was woman. I’m in financial disarray. I should have filed bankruptcy some time ago. But some of us just keep blinders on. I could ‘attract’ a new job! I was going to pay those debts off!

I didn’t ‘attract’ very well. You know that whole law of attraction comes with detractors who say our subconscious limits us and we really can’t allow ourselves to have some of what we think we want and are trying to attract?

But that’s not what this blog is about. This post is about New Beginnings.

There are many things you should do before considering starting a business of your own. Cleaning up your finances and having a cushion of savings is a big part. Having a life plan is another.

Since I figure not many people will want to follow along as I bumble along as a novice entrepreneur, I can affiliate with someone past that stage and market their products!

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE. I WILL ACT. Even if the action is just a baby step, I will act! Perhaps that act will become a whole play, a successful “I did it!!” play. 🙂

Now to learn how to make an opt in page so I can contact info if you want to know more. Or if you want a free copy of my ebook…Do You Have What It Takes To Be An Entrepreneur which evolved into Snippets, Tidbits and Food for Thought?

Remember, I told you. Newbie here. This blog really isn’t for seasoned marketers, but someone still in the beginning stages of should I or shouldn’t I???

Fair enough?

 

The Worm Turned

Where the heck would I have heard such a phrase I do not know.

And yet I woke up with that phrase in my mind.

To me it somewhat means I am having an attack of bravery, something I don’t often exhibit; especially to loved ones. I’m so afraid they will choose to stop loving me…

Can you really believe that BS? Well, I can, but I don’t really believe it.

So where’d it come from? Past lives…yadda, yadda, yadda

For goodness sake – let it go! How many times do I have to beat a dead horse???

Well, often! If it was that easy to figure out and work through our reactions to certain stimuli we wouldn’t have therapists would we? Or step programs.

TODAY THE WORM IS TURNING

Into what I’m not sure. 🙂

Hopefully into a more confident, self assured woman knowing I am capable of more than I’ve exhibited so far. Let the fear go…

I’ve researched odds and ends of things. I’ve learned what I feel incapable of doing and what I feel capable of doing. It just doesn’t make much sense to me to try to make a living at something I’m not inherently capable of doing for any length of time. Not as an entrepreneur at any rate.

If affiliate marketing is to be the choice then I need to learn more. With sales letters you will read often about how people try, try and try some more and don’t make any money. The question is, did they really try? Or did they give up too soon? Or is this sales hype?

Unknown at this time. I have listened to a few affiliate marketers. Part of my motto is to listen to three points of view at least and find that middle ground. There are many to listen to! But if I listen to them all I will never do anything, so soon done.

One marketer wanted $2,000.00 Now mind you, there are more expensive programs. I just looked at an email from him at this particular time so his program got included in this very, very brief synopsis.

One marketer wanted $997 for a computer program. Sounded pretty good actually. While I will not be using it today until I start slower and learn a bit more, I very well may as time goes on.

One marketer had a workshop in my area. Me being me, I had to attend once I found out about it from another affiliate marketer. They were going to have a 3 day intensive training session. Cost – $497. I thought it was a great price. I attended one once before that cost me much more. Then I was still so new it was Greek to me and I didn’t feel confident enough to do it on my own. I was supposed to have a partner who bailed. Beware of bailing partners.

When I didn’t sign up I got an auto responder email with a program for $49.00. All right! A reasonable priced beginner program for someone such as me! Yup! This is where I shall begin.

I am going to take the timing of the person’s workshop I attended as a sign. In part because I was ready to focus more on this anyway. I’ve learned:

a. I don’t want to sell large ticket items.

b. I don’t believe people will want to continue reading books by a beginner. Readers often want expertise, not just bland beginning info. Especially from someone who isn’t a successful entrepreneur yet! Yea, tell my story, but AFTER I’ve found my niche and learned more.

c. As an advisor type person I will feel more confident learning a subject, teaching someone else about it, then move on.

d. Guess whose program is the $49.00 one? Yup, you guessed it. The workshop. The sign.

Ok, so I’ve taught myself by exploration of self and business types to the point where I’ve finally found what I choose to create my niche in! 

You have no idea how long this took. Along the way I’ve had some temp jobs and part time jobs. Just Over Broke. But they kept me afloat until I found my place to begin in earnest.

This blog will now somewhat end and I will start the beginning of Dani’s Story of Entrepreneurship.

What do you think? Success or…

Let’s not even put the “F” word out in the Universe

And as for my children? Well, I love them because of who they are. Yea, so maybe we don’t see eye to eye on many things. Maybe I get bent out of shape. But if I don’t want them to judge me, guess I can’t judge them now can I?

Let them be…  And that’s pretty much what I said when I said I decided on a pen name.    

Along with LET IT GO for me…LET THEM BE for them.

 

 

Some days life sucks

When do you continue trying and when do you stop the insanity? I wish the answers were easy to find.

I’m ready to give up. Who else out there has hit such a low spot in their life they have no idea where to turn or what to do?

I have family, a very large and diverse family actually, including three daughters.

And I need to go!!! Somewhere, anywhere.

I’ve had chronic thoughts of not being good enough.

How sad. Can you change on a dime? I don’t appear to be able to. So think well if you think change is always easy. For instance, don’t let a salesperson at a seminar talk you into a high ticket item which is totally different than anything you’ve done before if you need to change to do it. Can it be done? Sure. But…many of us have those subconscious limitations and they won’t let you veer too much without something of a fight.

And yet, there’s a Tony Robbins program on Netflix. I haven’t watched it all yet. But it appears you can change in a moment if you have the right…

AHA Moment!!! So what is my moment? What’s your ‘moment’?

Was it something I did? Again?

Read prior blogs and you will see I believe this isn’t our first go around as humans, that we’ve lived before. One of the lessons I’m here this lifetime to learn is to let it go! I’ve made mistakes in the past as we all have. I’ve felt guilty for missing details and over confident and others paid a high price. I failed…

If you feel like a guilty failure do you really think an introvert such as myself will be able to get past that to an overconfident super doer achiever? I don’t think so on a dime…I need at least a buck!

Yet if we really have been here more than once, chances are I had a lifetime where I succeeded brilliantly!!! Why don’t I remember and focus on that lifetime? Apparently it is because the ego is trying to keep us from harm. We learn more by what hurts us (that reptilian fight or flight response when it perceives a threat it experienced before) than by our joys. Go figure.

I read a book somewhere where the author said something to the effect tell them you are leaving for a time, but you will be back. Hold a place for me. I need to go for a time. Perhaps this time is the right time and place. Just that the other times were not.

Yea well, I’ve tried that a few times.

Dumb as this may sound, if I can’t handle personal relationships worth a damn, how do I think I will handle a business?

I don’t think I can successfully. So back to the idea of affiliate marketing I go. Let someone else have the product to sell. Let someone else handle customer service and warranties and charging for the course and returning money if need be.

I do have someone to handle the books and taxes. I am part of LegalShield for legal concerns. But customer service and dealing with people constantly? Failing people again? I shudder. No, no and again no!!! Even though I now know where it originated, the reluctance is still there. Not as sharply defined, but still there…

The intro in my ebook tells my story a little bit. There I tell anyone who may read it that I’m out to prove I can to others, as well as myself.

I think I can…

 

 

 

 

Ok, so I feel this need to write

In the last post I told you this blog may soon be done. Apparently I’m wrong. I felt this need to write on here even if nobody does read it. I don’t focus on keywords and meta tags and who knows what all you should concentrate on in order to have your post ranked and people even know it’s there.

I do, however, have this overwhelming feeling writing this is something I’m supposed to do. It will help beginners at some point in time.

Spirit – let’s leave it simply at that as some others do – wants this written. So I shall write.

I have to tell you about further signs. (Read earlier posts) I have no doubt these were not random occurrences. I’ve been exploring work from home options for years. I was a demonstrator (a form of network marketing). I went the license route even though I have little to no desire to sell. I’ve had a real estate license, a license to sell mutual funds, a life and health license and a property & casualty license (home and auto on the main).

And still through it all I mainly function best as the marketing/admin assistant. The make sure all the i’s are dotted and the t’s crossed in contracts, follow up, that sort of thing. I prefer the office work to the people contact.

While I’ve been focusing on at home work via computer, along come ads. One convinced me to go to the workshop. Another to check out a different program and what they suggest.

Just quick info in and among all the other info:

#1 Company from workshop tells you flat out free traffic takes too long. Buy traffic!

#2 Company has software showing you how to find leads for free

So which is it? Buy or free? Inquiring minds want to know…

This is for affiliate marketing. I told you I went to a workshop and was reading a book written by the founder of the company.

I really enjoy him. Some day you will be offered my ebook for free like he wrote and offers his for free when you attend his workshops. I’m not planning on workshops any time soon, but will still offer the ebook in a way to help build my business. After all, that is the name of the game. Start my own small at home business.

In the ebook I have snippets, tidbits and food for thought of information. I call it the good, the bad and the tricky. I try not to make something look so awesome and blow smoke up your butt to get you to buy only so I make money. I want you to buy because it is right for you! And me make money.

He told some of the plain and unvarnished possibilities of failure.

Then I attended a webinar by someone else in the biz. I listened to his brother years ago, but didn’t have the interest so much then. I’d have to sit in front of the computer too much and run campaigns…and I didn’t understand it as well then as I do now. That fear of the unknown can so hold you back.

Add to the mix I needed some time to really get a feel for who and what I am so I would have a better chance of success. Life interfered… for many of us our lives keep us from living our dreams. Heck, other than saying I want freedom, I don’t even have other exciting dreams! But what a ride that dream of freedom may take me on.

Now the product on the webinar was truly awesome it appears. It cost twice the amount of the weekend workshop with the first guy.

So what do I do? Start slow with the guy who tells me like it is?

Or spend twice the amount with the phenomenal looking software?

Now you may want to know more about me and how this is supposed to work. I like three viewpoints. Then try to find the middle ground.

That means I have no answer for you yet. There are plenty of other marketers out there. I will have to explore one more and see what he has to say. See how close they agree and follow the advice that seems best for me. Yes, I know the salesmen will say I’m procrastinating. Some will go so far as to tell you if you can’t make decisions quick you won’t succeed. That may be true, but they also do it to try to get you to sign on the dotted line. For years I procrastinated. I admit it.

NOW I can it DUE DILIGENCE! THEN I will act.

I’ve been convinced by salesmen to buy at first look through. I find that’s not usually in my best interests. Impulse buys often aren’t the best for me. Yet there are others who make decisions quickly then move on.

So what are you? A quick decision maker, confident in your abilities? Or like me? More a ‘show me’ type person with facts and figures and give me time to think it through before deciding type?

Keep posted. I will review one more source.

But…well for now I have to admit I think I will go for the lesser priced product at this time. Besides the fact life threw some curve balls at me and money is tight, it was strongly suggested pick your niche, your marketing method and stick to just one to start! Don’t overwhelm yourself.

That sounds like good advice to me. I can build up later. AFTER I’ve placed my first ad and make some cash. No doubt I can buy that software free leads product later. With the money I earned from the small, baby steps.

Patience….

This blog may soon be done

I didn’t have many followers or visitors, in part because I didn’t try hard enough. I kept having this feeling I hadn’t quite found my niche yet. Close, but not yet.

But for those of you who read parts of it, thank you! I hope you learned something from my explorations and story.

Now back to present day, time and concerns. Some of my prior posts have been much ado about knowing yourself, the possibility of change and ways to find you and then on to question …

Do You Have What It Takes To Be An Entrepreneur?

That’s to be the name of my first ebook. Its about various ways of self exploration because I am of the firm belief if you don’t have the characteristics to be a successful entrepreneur there’s a big chance it won’t work for you. I’m not saying don’t try! Who am I to say that? Nobody! Just saying a stat heard recently is only 1% – only 1%! – survive as an entrepreneur. It could be at monetary expense. Maybe you don’t mind the monetary expense. You had to at least try. Kudos to you intrepid explorers! But others regret their decisions later. So why not find out earlier rather than later if you really have the ‘right stuff’?

Personally while I may write about it and can pass on learned knowledge, I’m not a real life successful entrepreneur. Who wants to listen to someone with no first hand experience? Oh I’ve had licenses. And found out sales is not my forte. Office work is my forte. I enjoy it. What can I say? Some find paperwork and sitting in an office boring. It satisfies me. Call centers do not satisfy me. Been there, done that too.

So great. I don’t like sales (but without sales how do you make money which is the end goal – wealth) and I have no desire to provide customer service. I also have zilch desire to have employees. Me? No. Uh oh. No way. Hmmm…what’s a better niche for someone like me then? Especially someone wanting freedom to live where I want? Which will include part of the time near family and friends up north and part of the time in a warmer clime in winter by the beach further south?

Ok, I will sell some products. Network marketing style. Yea, yea, yea. I hear many of you now. It has a bad reputation with many. But its great for others. They’ve got a team and are doing fabulous! To each his own. But I at least know there’s a bad rep out there. I know upwards of 95% of people who join don’t do anything. I know. So if I explore this further, I went into it with my eyes open. Yea, perhaps that first person to convince me to join a company found me easy prey because I didn’t know what I didn’t know, but I do now. I also know IT CAN BE DONE IF YOU WORK IT!

Oh wait…work it??? Yes, most successful entrepreneurs work hard for what they accomplish. Many then may slack off like Tim Ferris with his 4 hour work week, but beginners often have to work to build that business and relationships.

But I went to an affiliate marketing workshop the other evening. I didn’t overly like the presentation and did not sign up for their further training.

As a free gift I got a book written by the founder of the company. He opened my eyes further about affiliate marketing. Me and my reading over listening. What can I say? I’m a book learner with some auditory responses. But that printed word is where I gravitate. I already knew some about affiliate marketing. This wasn’t the first time I’d heard of it. But I had to circle around various money making ideas and find myself back to the idea.

I’m thinking now is my time and this is a niche for me to be in.

1. Its online. I can reach that ‘wider audience’ described in prior posts

2. I don’t have to be an expert or wonder will people want to buy my simple ebooks on basics for beginners. I can be an affiliate for those who already have a measure of success.

3. No employees for me. No customer service need by me. No merchant accounts needed.

4. Since I’m not the one actually selling, no worries about following laws of all countries.

5. One of the biggest industries to market? Business education!!!

Whoppee! Right up my alley. I can learn it from them and affiliate market with them at the same time. Sounds like a win—win to me.

After all isn’t that what sells? I provide a solution to their problems? Aren’t I telling people know yourself before trying to become an entrepreneur because it can be a tough road to follow? So why not have a source of education? Business education to help you learn such things as outsourcing? Branding?

Hhmmm…I think they may have helped me decide WHAT business I should be in…

Affiliate marketing with some ebook sales on the side and some network marketing.

It appears millionaires have somewhere in the neighborhood of 7 revenue streams. So if millions is your goal, be prepared to diversify.

So if I’m going to affiliate market I should focus on that goal for a time.

Writing may take a bit of a back seat for now. We shall see.

Maybe I continue on here to put before you that education.

Does anyone want information on successful entrepreneurs to see what kind of coaching and education they may have to offer? Seriously that whole not knowing what you don’t know can really trip you up.

So learn more…..

 

 

What’s in an emotion?

Today has not been a good day.

My one sister-in-law who is more a sister to me than some of my birth siblings has breast cancer. A niece was also diagnosed with breast cancer. And then while fighting cancer her husband (my brother) dies of a massive heart attack. I can only imagine her emotions at this time. What is she going to do?

Neither chooses to listen to all I’ve learned from people like Ty Bollinger and Ocean Robbins, Dr. Wallach, Dr. Ahrens and others.

So how does that make me an influencer?

If you are online, you want to be an influencer so people follow you. If they don’t like you, or feel you don’t know enough, they will click on the blog or email if you are lucky, look for maybe 8 seconds or so then either decide to stay or click, they are gone.

So you have to catch their attention so they stay.

And keep writing worthwhile micro content. Me? I’ve written more than micro. I will cut it back I’m sure and be more snippets, but to start I wanted information out there.

Who on here believes in archetypes? If you haven’t heard of it, feel free to Google. Prior posts chat about it if you want to go there.

Who believes in the soul is eternal and does not die? The physical body dies, but the soul itself does not.

Along the line we experience this, that and everything else under the sun and our subconscious can store memories and emotions we have no idea are there. Many are from this present life. Some are not…

How far back does it go I wonder?

And what does it feel? What emotions are attached?

There is a whole range of emotions. Rage, peace, fear, joy, angst, acceptance…

Guilty…

Like you’ve failed…

There I am today. For years I’ve had this feeling of being a loser; trying so hard to change my mind to a success. I’ve had some measure of success. Til a few months back I would not have said ‘loser’ was so much a part of my psyche, but yea, apparently it was.

I’m working on that whole law of attraction, visualization, meditation type actions. The meditation is working. I may go for weeks, months or years with no Aha moment! Then suddenly they build one after the other.

This is that suddenly build one after the other. My story has to be heard. God wants it out there. By now you know I believe in a creative force, God should you wish to call him such. Again, its tricky…what’s in a name?

A loser is bad enough, but a guilty failure is different. Ah so now I see why name is so important! It creates a feeling in the brain. Now mind you that’s only my opinion so could well be wrong. But I feel this! Adam was put in charge of naming the animals as if names are so important. The chance of you having a successful business with a loser mindset and attitude is fairly low and there’s this whole concept of –

Change your mind and change your world.

Yea, easy to say, but to do? No so easy for some of us to do. Especially for a visionary who is a lousy doer at the best of times!!!

So ok, further down the rabbit hole we go. How do I find this incident, this action that makes me feel such guilt? Such failure?

I do not know. The guiding voice inside my mind says it goes so far back, before mankind even. We are by no means the only beings around. Our soul which is an important piece of the total tapestry of life has been around a long, long time.

And actually we are a race in infancy as an archetype. Which is why according to one spiritual writer many of us are still in the infancy stage and looking for someone to save us.

I’m not looking for someone to save me. From what? From a creative force that loves me? People with near death experiences speak of such overwhelming love. I choose to believe that.

But somewhere, someone was looking for me to save them. And I failed. My plan was rife with mini plans that could not stand up to the light of day. I dreamt of a total win without taking enough into account of others. I’m often told reality is a state of mind. Change your mind.

Dream big or go home!!!

I went home. With my tail between my legs. That may not even be a euphemism for all I really know.

I failed. I let so many people down. I changed the course of history for some. They believed in me…and I did not take enough account of who I really am and told myself I can do this or make them take their beliefs (some unconscious limiting beliefs) into account!!!!

Details were left out. Could I have done better? No doubt. If being too much a doer and self confident talker person actually a bit of a detriment? I believe so. They may be movers and shakers, but they often need back office support. Do you have such support?

Do you need a coach? I wasn’t going to be a coach. Now I’m not so sure. Some of you beginners may well need someone like me, someone at the same place you are. A learn as we go approach. Perhaps someone who is also a beginner is more easy to understand and follow. Perhaps…

Who wants to listen to someone who admits to having let people down because of lack of attention to details? What business can I find that can use my strengths where people don’t have to count on just me? Networking is coming back full circle again. Can I do that without too big a mess-up?

But I want to know. Inquiring minds want to know…

Just what is “this”, though? What is my strength? What is my weakness (sales is a biggie)

What did I do??? Or not do as the case may be? Details are not flooding my mind. Just the overwhelming feeling I was to help people and instead made their situation worse. NOW its back to stop wallowing in the self pity of what I did wrong and get back up, dust myself off and start all over again!!!

I have a workshop tomorrow evening on online marketing. Timing serendipitous? Is this meant to be? I originally had in my ebook I don’t love sales. I want to sell small products because there’s a good chance it won’t be used. It will be an impulse buy for many and when push comes to shove the people won’t do it. One of the emails sent out from the presenting company before the night talks of marketing a more expensive product so less sales necessary. And suddenly I think  – after how long saying but most people don’t use it –  who am I to say who should or should not take the risk and buy? Who am I? Who am I to say to a graduate of hard knocks that what money they have should be locked away in safety and not take chances? Who am I to tell others their risk tolerance?

Was it my destiny to look deep in my psyche to see what I should or should not do just before this workshop? Am I much better at law of attraction than I gave myself credit for?

Or will I continue to feel guilt and failure? If I continue, will I be able to in all conscience market to others?

Is marketing to go by the wayside?

It can’t!!! Its my dream! To market to the masses! The capability is there. The masses are online. Online marketing is possible. I can network market also and someone else provide service and the product shipping, etc. There is management. There is affiliate marketing. But I need details!

I want to erase that failure by getting more details this lifetime around (ok, so now you know why paralysis by analysis!!! – found out another piece of me).

The goal is to create that successful venture where I can simply help others realize their dreams.

What is your dream? Fame? Fortune? Coaching? Online marketing? Real estate investing?

What?

I repeat…I am doing this. You do what suits you best. I want to know what makes me – me. I want to know my strengths. What can I do? My weaknesses – what will I balk at to point my business will flounder? My passion? Without passion you may well lose focus. Where’s my partner? I have no strong desire to walk and talk alone.

I want you and I to be successes! In life! In relationships! As entrepreneurs!

Know thyself…